A Sharp Halloween 2018

We had a rainy, gloomy, and cold Halloween here, but we still managed to pack a lot of fun into the day! Plus, with these two cute porcupines, who couldn't have a great day?!

      We started the morning out by taking pictures of the boys in their costumes before the majority of the rain hit us. Both Miles and Avery were more than happy to pose for the camera in their cool, momma-made costumes. Of course, some bribery in the form of a lollipop helped Miles sit still for some pictures.

      To pass time while Brock was at his morning classes, Miles, Avery, and I headed to the library where Miles got a gentle start to his very first time trick-or-treating. There, we got a cute toy spider and coupons for two free custard cones at Andy's. Yum! We also made a craft foam pumpkin, but it has since gone MIA. I'm sure it'll show up somewhere. 

      After Brock came back from class and did an assignment or two, we headed out to Andy's to redeem our free cones and th…

Pumpkin Carving 2018

You know what is almost impossible?       Carving pumpkins with two little ones around.  Pumpkin guts, seeds everywhere.       Babies, toddlers, and knives, oh my!
      All joking aside, we had a fun time carving our pumpkins this year. Our back patio provided the perfect place for us, out of the chilly breeze and free from the sun. It was pretty warm for an October morning, and so bright out. 
      This year we got 3 pumpkins, a number that's gone down since last year, and I anticipate an even lower number next year. Until Miles and Avery reach the age that they can carve their pumpkins themselves, I think we'll stick to two. 

     I like to go the traditional route, a good ol' Jack'o'Lantern face. Simple and easy. I also like to sketch out the design before I go carving in. Brock is more of a freehand pumpkin carver, although right before he started carving, he changed his mind and decided to draw out his own design, too.

      Our third pumpkin was a last…

Weight Loss Update

And just like that, October is nearly over. I have to say, the first half of the month dragged it's feet ever so slowly, but now that we've moved and my days are filled with rush, rush, rush, time is flying by. It's nearly Halloween! I'm glad that I thought ahead and finished the boys' Halloween costumes with enough time to spare.

      With the busyness of this past month, I haven't been able to meet my goals as I had originally planned, but the month of November brings more opportunity. Although on the other hand, it also brings Thanksgiving and an abundance of yummy goodness. With cooler weather, I am excited about being able to get out and walk more, and now that we have our own backyard to play in, I'm eager to get Miles out there and running around before winter comes.

      There it is, weight loss for the month of October. At least I can say that it is a loss, and not a gain. I'm heading in the right direction! I tried my best to avoid th…

Big Changes

First and foremost, we bought our first house! The process was long (it's taken up nearly the entirety of Avery's earth-side life), stressful, and at times overwhelming, but where there's a will, there's a way! We are absolutely in love with our new home. It's so perfect for our little family, and my heart just swells at the thought of all of the growing we will be doing in this house over the upcoming years. It is a new construction, so we are the first family that gets to love this dwelling and adjust it to fit our preferences and needs.

      Right after signing the closing contracts and getting our keys, Brock and I went straight to our new home. This was the first picture I snapped of the house, before we went inside. Unlocking and opening the door for the first time was unreal.

      My favorite part of the house: the kitchen! Everything about it is so perfect, and I'm excited to cook meals for my family in this beautiful space.

      Packing with …

Thick Thighs, Thin Patience - My Weight Loss Journey (Part 1)

When it comes to body image and self-esteem, I've always had an arduous journey. Thanks to an unhealthy relationship with food, coping mechanisms that rely on lots of junk food, and several traumatic experiences during my childhood, I have always struggled.

      After my mother passed away, I quickly ballooned up in weight. Chocolate had become my closest friend and eating would help keep the thoughts away. There were an abundance of thoughts, so in turn, there was a lot of snacking. Endless snacking. By the end of December 2015, I weighed 250 lbs. I hadn't even realized where I was at with my weight and appearance at that point. I was completely ignorant and unaware of the situation I had put myself in. You'd think that this would inspire change, right? Wrong. Instead, I completely avoided scales and taking pictures of myself.

      It was a family picture that finally brought me back to reality.

      The cousins of my family all lined up to recreate a picture ta…

Happy Birthday, Momma.

It's been three and a half years since she passed away unexpectedly and I'm still finding myself going through varying stages of grief. Lately, they feelings have been raw and powerful, like how it felt in the months following her death.

      I wish I could hug her just one last time. I would give anything to just be held by her and feel her presence around me, comforting me. Sometimes I feel so utterly lost and confused, and so alone in this motherhood experience. Now that I am a mother myself, it seems like the grief is more painful. Everyday I wish that I could call her up, tell her about all of the little things that the babies are doing. My heart aches thinking about her not being able to hold her grand babies for the very first time, to hear their giggles, and snuggle them to sleep.

      I'd like to imagine that today, to celebrate her 41st birthday, we'd be going out to lunch together. Maybe do some shopping. We hug and laugh and I'd have made her a…

Avery's Birth Story - Successful VBAC

Beginning on July 9th, I started having more regular contractions that would start around 3 am and last until 7 am. They would always slow down by the time that Miles would awake for the day at 8 am, but I would still have a contraction between every 10-20 minutes throughout the remainder of the day. This pattern went on for 3 days, with a labor and delivery visit on the morning of July 10th out of desperation. I was only 1 cm and 50% effaced that morning, so I was sure that the contractions were getting me absolutely nowhere and that I was just going through the pain for nothing. It was at that point that my OB suggested we start thinking about a repeat Cesarean. She had Friday, July 13th open and suggested that Brock and I take some time to think it over. She also scooted my next and final prenatal appointment up a day so that she could see if my contractions were progressing me at all.

      On July 11th, I had a prenatal appointment at 9 am. A cervical check showed no chang…